Musings of my mind

So usually I am a post what's happening picture, video, etc kind of girl but I have had a lot of thoughts running through my head lately and since I hate to write in my journal, I figured here is a good place to get it all out. Where to begin? I have been thinking lately about life, happiness, faith, and trials. Is life supposed to be "hard"? A "struggle"? What makes life hard? I usually think it is our own choices that lead us to happiness or 'struggles'. If we are truly living the gospel of Jesus Christ, life will not be 'hard' will it? Well, my dad seemed to think otherwise and told me I was a very judgemental person. Am I? So what if I am? Aren't we supposed to judge? (righteously, I know) I mean, I am a happy person. Sure, I get frustrated at times when I've said no to an extra snack and the culprit continues to persist thinking they can break Mom. My resolve has been firm though and I do not give in and then a lesson ensues about obedience and being like Nephi, etc. Of course I am tired! I have 3 little boys and pregnant with another! But is that their fault? Is it an excuse to be a whole list of unpleasant adjectives? No! So, I still say happiness is a choice! And I felt validated this weekend at General Conference. We were told to laugh instead of get angry. We were told of the happiness that comes through living the gospel of Christ. We were told of the great miracles that faith and works can bring to pass. Am I saying that our lives will be spared from any and every challenge if we are obedient and live the gosepl of Jesus Chirst? No, I am saying we will have so much strength to overcome it that it will not be "hard". Life is NOT "hard". It is not supposed to be! Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love us and want us to be happy! We make it hard, our faithlessness, our distrust, our pride, our weakness makes life hard. It doesn't have to be. Jesus payed that price. All we have to do is ask him and he helps us. What a wonderful plan! What a wonderful life!!!

I am so happy! Life is good!

OK, I think that's all for now. This has kinda turned into a testimony. But you know what? I am who am I because of my testimony. I am still trying. I am not perfect. But, I am going to try each and everyday to do the things to bring about happiness and faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.