I don't even know what is going on with me anymore.
I'll have one great day where I get up, make a yummy breakfast for my family, iron my hubby's clothes, snuggle my kids, read the scriptures as a family, take a shower, get dressed to my shoes, do the morning chores, have a wonderful day of homeschooling, put the children down for naps, have personal time with Zech, do my afternoon chores, make a great dinner, kiss my husband when he gets home, clean the kitchen, give the kids a bath, read them stories, say prayers, sing them songs, give them kisses, and send them off to bed with nothing but sweet feelings and happiness in my heart for a day well done.
That was Monday.
What happened to Tuesday, Wed, and Thursday???
Tuesday I can't even remember Tuesday.
Yesterday I had a massive headache/migraine??? I don't know. It was really bad.
Today is an absolute disaster! I am sooo emotional! I completely lost it in front of some friends and feel so stupid. I have been crying ever since. Is it pregnancy hormones? Am I losing my mind? Is it too much stress? I can't wait for this pregnancy to be over. I don't mind being pregnant, but I do mind not being in control of myself. I swear if this is not a girl I am going to pissed. Because I have NEVER been like this with my other 3 pregancies.
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5 comments:
dear bekah... oh sweet girl... you are reading the first year of my third's life verbatim... i would always start the week off right and then.. by wednesday I was calling my mom saying I JUST DON'T THINK I CAN DO THIS...I'M SUCH A BAD MOM... I CAN'T CONTROL MY CHILDREN AND GET IT ALL DONE!! Thing have only gotten better for me in the last 2 months or so. So my advice to you is go and take a bubble bath... and worry first about the top 3 things that are most important... from there let other things slide and don't beat yourself up.. dinner may not always be as nutritious and delicious, clothes may not get ironed, and there are days where a nap is needed... I use to read this almost weekly and it always helped me get thru those speed bumps...
http://fc.byu.edu/jpages/ee/w_etb87.htm
and
http://www.ldfr.com/about_us/baby.lasso
sit back and read them.. the first is a talk given by:president benson and the other is a talk given by diane hopkins titled.. the baby IS the lesson... I HOPE THIS HELPED... IT HELPED ME... KEEP YOUR CHIN UP GIRLLY... YOU CAN DO IT... YOU ARE SOOOO NORMAL.. i'm glad you have girls you can let your eyes water to!! =)
Rebekah, you've seen me at some of my craziest moments, and nobody minds you being crazy and emotional sometimes too. Let me know when you need me! Love ya hon!
bekah, oh the life of a mommy of little ones while being pregnant...it's called stress, little lady. it's bound to catch up with you once in a while. something kadi simmons told me once has stuck with me through the years - the fact that you are concerned with your behavior toward your children means that you are a wonderful mom! It's a rough job but wonderful at the same time, isn't it crazy! i just thank the Lord for His grace - he only expects us to do our best, and some days our best is a lot less than other days - but if we just do what we can, then He makes up for the rest! You are still Bekah - just Bekah with three little ones running around and one running around in your belly!
You are pregnant?! Congrats! It happens to everyone! Keep up the good work!
Awnan said, "Holy *@#!" the other day. That might make you feel better?
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